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emo breakdown

2006-12-13T16:59:00.000-08:00

i dono wat wrnog with me.. suddenly just got into an emo breakdown.. last nite i totally cant slp at all, all the bad things keep flashing in mi mind, are these happening soon ? why are they keep flashing around me? i'm veri scared, really veri scared.. i donwan to lose them all... i almost cried when i wk up.. de da ji really v big.. juz let me die :( :( :(

really, nw i v v shag, i don feel lik doing anything i don feel like going sch , work or whatever shit.. i juz feel like going to jump and die... :( haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz.

back to blogging

2006-12-11T16:18:00.000-08:00

yoooo hahah everybody i am back to blogging for a moment, haha recently mani mani things happened and i also no haf time to come n blog.. though requested by BC for a very long time to do blogging le.. haha will do more often from now on, esp 3 weeks of "holidays" are coming.. hahaha.. anyway, last weekend got midnight sales for best denki, only to realise how kiasu is singapore ppl lor.. hahaha early early 4pm already queueing for what we call MIDNIGHT sales.. LOL.. quite a success lah, not too bad hahha at least sales was OK, though target was not hit.. haha damn tired lor.. every nite work till like 230am ? WOOOOOO~ *high* hahah...

hahah o ya feel kinda cheated by buying sin huey album leh .. haha disc 1 was ok but disc 2 was all taipei to beijing in different remixes.. haha wth man.. buy or not, u decide lah..anyway 8days overrate it lah.. 4.5 ?! mi ass lah :X

o ya and this song taipei to beijing, v scary lor.. ahha got backward masking effect one, u hear liao it keep repeating in ur head, hao irritating lor.. hahah everyone is getting the backward masking shit in their head, me, meing, bc, jiayou etc.. LOL..

finally i know what year 3 life is all about, it's just nothing but projects.. take a look man, we have projects in maths, wsna, ebp, lrbe, pscm, and crm !! almost all the major modules got major projects leh, worst is ebp.. haha duh :P veri stressful module ah .. hahaha .. o ya and speaking of sch, reminds me of chin kin yong and his weird logic.. no one failed the CA.. it's onli u get more marks, or get less marks to accumulate.. haha wth.. even if u score 0, u don fail, is just tht u accumulate no marks till e final exams.. hahah encouraging logic? LOL.. no logic to me.. :X

ritez, i shall be ending here coz going for amy-edwin-premiere thingy.. hahah hope it doesnt get screwed like last week, so paiseh, all cannot burn wahhaha :P 6 cca points leh *wootz*

yo

2006-10-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

haha once again i am back here posting.. read several peeps blog b4 i came to post mine.. last few days was nothing but fyp..nothing but jsp..nothing but SQL~ hao tired wor..so mani ppl at work is leaving the workplace..due to undue stress i supposed ? haha heck lar.. hmm more ppl leave maybe is gd thing, maybe is not, we shall see i dunno too..

alright, tml going out wif danie, his gf and his gf's sister and his gf's cousin.. woahz. machiam they 1 family i m some outsider .. haha maybe after tml i am part of e family leh ? hahah jkjk LOL actually i quite part of e family, coz danie's mi bro~ but morning got impt stuffs to do so won't be meeting mi fyp client liao, leave it to e 2 gals.. jiayou worx~!

sch is quite boring actually, today overslpt wth din go maths lesson, went to orchard mac to chiong fyp..den happen to saw kel kel there... and cam called me, heng ah ~! if not later ppl tot y i stalking kel kel.. hahah like some bian tai and kel kel !! I AM NOT !! o yeah, sth's v cool... yf bring the burger marshmellow to sch lor.. v v cute leh~ haha and to ms ciwei, mi dp is a REINDEER, not A BEAR !!! irritating !!! :P

it's only 3 more months, parting is coming soon... parting is a way of life i guess... be it happy for some, sad for some, i believe there will be memories that is stored in Dover Road... CMPB's checkup coming, NS's coming... so like dave, i am coming up with mi wish list too~ here it comes:

1. to be married by 26 or when i get my first million dollars - either one - eh unless no gals want me still lar, den i bo bian remain single all e way...

2. to try out all walks of life, i've been a airport 'servant' before, sales person before, delivery person before.. i gonna try out more

3. to get mi driving license asap.. wanna get it soon but no one pei me lor.. tt y till now still haven get.. hurhur

4. to get a car, 1 year after i come out from NS..

5. last but not least, get a perfect girlfriend for myself. perfection is in the eyes of the beholder - that's wad i felt. so i will b in search of the U, which is the other half of "US".. i no longer wanna say "I", "mine", "my" , i wanna say "we", "ours", "us".. our house, our car, our family.

anyway recently quite low in health, sometimes i feel i will die very young leh, coz i alot of problems, asthma lah, chestpain lah, back ache lar, frequent diarrhoea la.. problem kid.. i don tell mi parents most tings coz i donwan worry them.. hai~

anyway lookin 4ward to tml's outing..hope it be fun..

scared

2006-10-13T17:25:00.000-07:00

hahah have been an enriching past week for me.. the shadows of darkness shown upon me... LOL v easily over the past week i faced 3 different love problem cases... nowadays i see so many such problems until i feel like i am 'norman', v v scared of being committed in a relationship liao haha..

case 1.. someone waiting his whole life for a gal, till now haven get accepted.. good luck~!

case 2.. someone misunderstood and mistook me for wanting to snatch the limelight from him in impressing e gal he liks

case 3.. someone misunderstood and mistook his gf for liking me

LOL in all 3 cases, it ended up with a WTF thinking in my mind, and i just felt that well, love is such complicated, i really don wanna fall into one, though i wish my other half could be around..sometimes i feel i need someone to be there for me, but seeing such problems, i also myself v v scared lor.. got things to rely on also means that if your reliance falls, that's it for you..maybe being independent is good ?

some say i have not seen my real other half yet, so i am thinking and feeling this way, but maybe to me, i hardly will meet my other half that's becoz i tink after being in a failed relationship myself, and seeing so many other failed relationship, i am quite scared of taking the initiative already..so i guess i won't even tell someone i like her or wad even tho if i really do..

just like in magic, there's entertainment magic and black magic, a positiv-ity and a negativ-ity.. i chose to be pessimistic in this case.. anyway guys i will try to blog more often liao.. haha coz i see my blog pretty quiet whereas other ppl de always got so happening haha!

regarding fyp, sianz leh! alot of things gotta do for the client, quite high demand though, wanted me to program a 'blackboard' argh~ but well i can do it de lah, jiayou kh.. hahah~ o ya, speaking of jiayou reminds me of chin kin yong.. calling jiayu - jiayou~ and that's ironic when he pass the scripts back to her.. "jiayou" LOL lame leh. :P

alright i shall b going for work liaoz.. mi mind mostly is set liao.. till i overcome my fear for love bah

stress

2006-10-11T07:16:00.000-07:00

hahah so jy came back to the blogging world liaox.. but she come back hor her posts like more than mine lor .. haha i post v little nia lah.. coz mi life aint that interesting worx~ hahah fyp dateline is getting closer and closer liao.. the stress getting higher n higher.. haha more n more projs coming up..seem like this last hurdle before we graduate is getting more and higher haha...

hahah suddenly i feel i am missing something .. anyway today attended lecture for e first time in dono how mani months and god! that shucks! chin kin yong + eddie ong combo slp lesson is all i can say~ LOL! i went home slp after that. supposed to go gym wif those guys but sry to pangseh heh! alot of misunderstandings occured this week also, resulted in mani unhappy faces, but what's over is over.. heh.. tomorrow will be a better day (but i doubt this tho i am typing this..coz tml is a LONG DAY!)

hahah..hao sianz wor..can someone support me ? give me all the support i need ? i am still standing on mi own, i need more inspiration liao ~!!

fyp stress !!

2006-10-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

haha i just got 'lectured' by edwin.. coz i nv do his fyp stuffs well.. haha i don blame him for being harsh or fierce at me lah, coz afterall is my fault mah.. i nv do things well how can blame ppl ? but well.. today got lectured by him it's a gd thing too.. because tis is part of my self realisation trip.. and i've already semi-woken...but thanks to edwin bit of sarcasm that i now just want to prove myself that i am no pushover.. it's more of an inspiration to me rather than a downfall.. i wont let u down :) cheers...

first time to sch..

2006-09-26T08:24:00.001-07:00

heh. i am back @ sch today..after such a long break..yeah.. but went for half hour coz i ponned e first half of the sch.. so sian don feel lyk goin mah, den i just made it on time for mi law lesson haha after that go out with bc, chris n meing to cine..supposed to b having pics up here wan but mi stupid hp cannot send bluetooth to mi comp.. anyway i m on mi notebook now !! hahah~!! stupid notebk took some time den manage to connect to mi starhub modem..

hahah recently reli v sway leh.. even play pool oso 5 round lose 5 round.. aiyoo.. dono what's becoming of me liao.. but nvr mind i will jiayou~ haha.. honey & clover now @ chapt 20 liao~ woots..finishing soon .. sad anime but well, relates well to life~ haha see ya guys, will blog tml or day after if i'm free !

first time to sch..

2006-09-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

done~!

2006-09-24T18:36:00.000-07:00

hahah IE users, u are now free to view mi tagboard on e left hand side liaox.. hahah.. i know e other few times the tagboard is at e bottom no wonder mi taggs all so little lar.. i am using firefox mah so i dunno the taggy is on e bottom until bc told me.. haha "commonly used browser" aka crap browser Mr I.E. LOL~

well guys if u trying hard 2 contact me but u cant get me, forget it lah.. i am still in mi own world living with myself.. i may just communicate with u via blogging, just take it that i am overseas or something

cheers.. will bring back something for everyone when i am back from overseas~

-

2006-09-20T17:41:00.000-07:00

haha i don feel like blogging with a title this time 'round.. anyway, wondering how r u guys recently haha.. guess everyone is missing me madly right ? haha i've been MIA.. YUP.. I've been looking for the original badboi, the one with determination, confidence... not the weak one who always laments to himself and escapes from the world.. sad to say, badboi is still on his way back.. he isn't back yet..

alright for all the movie lovers, pls don pwn yourself by watching the banquet.. it's seriously a crap movie.. very very bad plot.. only thing good ? there is zhang zi yi.. she's still that damn pretty.. haha.. wth, 3 emperors change hand within less than 5 mins.. and from start till the end, most of the imperial ppl want the ursurp emperor dead, and end up how he died ? it's bcoz zhang ziyi offer him a cup of wine, he gave to a prime minister daughter, she died due to the poison that zzy put inside, den he ask if she want him dead, she said yes, and he took the wine and drink and DIED. that's how he died after so much strategic planning to plot his death.. wth man.. haha stupid show.. after which, at this time shud be the crown price become emperor right ? the PM's son wanted to kill zzy and end up the son save his mother, he died..den emperor become zzy liao..end up dono where fly one knife den zzy died too.. stupid show..and the talking..super draggy... but i think it will win an award for being v artistic.. shows like this and HERO, ppl tend to rate it v high, coz it's v chim mah, chim till they don understand they tot it's very good..so highly rate it.. maybe win some golden horse award or wat lah, we shall see..

hahah honey n clover, once again recommended by bc in his blog, a very highly rated anime this i fully agree.. watch liao mi emotions run with the show, it's really a v sad anime.. i watch till a point where i don dare to go on watching liao, coz it's really very gan ren lor... sometimes in love, no matter how much u put in, it will never be returned, means it will nv be returned, mi firs time in a love anime.. normally i just go for sports (prince of tennis) or action/adventure (one piece)..one piece is great.. o ya.. another H&C screenshot coming up in this blogpost..

really a very sad anime..hahaha~!

love is a weird thing, there are ppl who are in love and lamenting about how their love fails, whereas there are ppl who are out of love and keep trying to get in love..well, let things be natural bah.. just be yourself is what i can say~ i am in no position to advise anyone, but i've seen so many relationships around me fail, failed badly.. very close friends, very strnog guys who can cry over a girl.. losing nites of slp becoz cant forget the person he loves 3 yrs ago and till now..well, i've seen too much....

i'll just be me until badboi comes back..the real self of badboi.

love story..

2006-09-06T20:54:00.000-07:00

爱的故事有很多你一定听过
他们说最美的爱情像琥珀
美的忍不住停留而任性的风吹过了
却飘下一片片叶落放开手
往北方走留下伤心的树独自忍受
你离开我连一句话都不说
只默默看着今晚天空星光闪烁
看今夜的流星划过了天际像我的心
我无法在冷静请你要倾听
你是我的唯一我不愿只相信
我们之间隔着海洋的距离
我们之间的爱已化成空气

some of the screenshots i got from honey n clover (as rec by BC):

released from burder..a start or an end ?

2006-08-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

woohooo...exams are over.......!! and the way to celebrate the end of exams ?? is to get a toy to pamper yourself !! I havent got myself a bday gift this year so I delay until now and I finally got it..yayy.. that's my uniquely White Sony PSP .. here we go :

* woots .. pardon my poor images *

anyway, spent abit on the PSP and a game....Burnout Legends.. not too bad.. wasnt overly rated on GameSpot (they gave this game 9.0... i would rate around 8.7 bah)... quite nice lah.. haha nice hobby for going to sch, to work and back home !!

and oh yes, other than for playing games, i also use this PSP for my favourite kaizoku anime - One Piece - woots .. hahah this is one of mi fave anime liao... in line with Tennis No Ohji Sama, Initial D & Dear Boys...coming up would also be Honey & Clover.. as recommended by BC.. sure is good stuff den he recommend one lah... hurhur....

anyway on a general pt of view... I love to do things most of the time with much effort.. and I really liked ppl to appreicate what i've done or maybe see some results out of things that i put alot of effort in... those who know me well will know what i mean... ;)

heyx..juz came back home..damn smelly n net damn slow.. i go bathe first lah..

oh yes, b4 i forget, "chicken porridge more hygenic than chicken rice" & "we'll have mee siam without hum tml"
* hum = cockles

where did our jobs go to ??

2006-08-16T18:52:00.000-07:00

A personal theory from me : badboi

From Singapore's Point of View

Point 1: Degree Holders not many jobs

Degree holders, compared to in the past, now have lesser job options as most employers have indicated that degree holders might not be as prestiged and degree holders are now considered common.

Point 2: Diploma Holders not many jobs

Diploma Holders not holding on to many jobs due to employers seeing them one grade below degree holders. Certain jobs still require a minimum degree before you can apply, and some don allow promotion within the firm if you are not a degree holder. Some Govt agencies are this way too. No degree = remain in your position till u get a degree. While demand seemed to be reported to be increasing, we've never see this before. Maybe more jobs, but everyone's pay is being halved resulting in no one wants to work (can't blame us for being gei gao in this case)

Point 3: ITE / NITEC / Higher-NITEC not many jobs either !

How come ?? 3rd group of ppl left liao still complain no more jobs when 1st 2 grps already complaining no jobs.. Certain employers look down upon ITE people, feel they don have the right atttiude to work while some have the adequate skills...

Point 4: Convicts / Ex-Convicts

No jobs.. why ? Yellow Ribbon project seemed to have backshot on itself (ref to New Paper 16 Aug, Cover Story). Ex-Con was not allowed to enter hotel during IMF, reason: he was an ex-convict. So Yellow Ribbon project was deemed not successful ? because ex-cons were not regarded as part of the society. they are still being "pai chi"

From a FOREIGN POINT OF VIEW

Point 1: My Country no job, nvr mind i can go Singapore pian jiak

Aiyo..working in my country only S$1.8k a month, sommore no ammenities, kids still have to attend sch here... maybe shud go to Singapore and pian jiak as Foreign TehLan and earn maybe $8k a month.. go Singapore paul more lampards TEH more LANs maybe can get a good condo, a good sch for mi kids, and maybe hook up with some SPG for ONS...buey pai hor life in Singapore

Now we know where our jobs go to.....

poh for more money...

2006-08-15T00:01:00.000-07:00

haha i tink i super long nvr come n blog liao.. have been very busy lor.. got fyp to chiong lah, SAD lah..dar dar dar... so mani things headache wor ! haha .. but i tink going to 雨过天晴 very soon le lah, final papers on 22.08.06 wootz! cant wait for it to come.. oh yes.. i am still very much intending to get a PSP man~! haha bth.. very tempted leh.. oh yeah. liverpool won chelsea 2-1 wor ! and wth..crouch.. YES CROUCH!! scored leh.. bth.. hahaha anyway eng vs greece tml.. i poh them win by mani mani ?? haha jiayou england...

hahah alright man.. i going to work soon liao.. hope to get mi PSP soon ~!

At least I have an attitude....

2006-08-05T22:53:00.000-07:00

- yo -

Chinese is cool...

2006-07-26T22:24:00.000-07:00

hahah although mi chinese is reli jialat ah, but i still prefer to type in chinese hahah but some ppl don understand chiense so bo bian i write english lor, but maybe mi english oso better lah hahah..nothing much happened actually just stayed at home e whole day doing the stupid SAD proj, but did some CSB discussions with mi grp mates via phone, msn, sms .. whatever technology u can tink of ~ haha had a nice dinner wif mi parents.. it's really a long time since i had a proper meal with them, honestly, truthfully.. haix.. wad an unfilial child..

slept earlier last nite coz tml morning got lesson 8am ~_~ a bitch's lesson LOL~ but she's quite nice recently haha cant blve it.. went late this morning at 825am and she still gimme attendance leh !!! today thurs ?? must buy TOTO.. hahaha!!

going for mi csb meeting liao loh~ hope i can score high high high..

好想10。。。。

dono wad's wrong with me...

2006-07-25T10:15:00.000-07:00

老实讲，最近也不知道搞什么东东的，脾气比平时暴躁，没一下子就发脾气。。今天更是不例外！我只差半分就能在FM的测验考个A，但是那个女人就是偏偏不给，烦死人了！！最后，和她吵了一会儿，我拿了书包，不顾一切，就去做工了。。途中听着10的歌，感觉好舒服，看来只有10的歌能带动亚洲潮流hahaha,加油喔10！！

今天也烦着自记的group members，一个两个都没做project的精神。。都是没做LSC的，不让就是迟到。。好sian喔!! just imagine u purposely reserve this time lor..

好啦，我也很累了。。明天见吧！！

Jolin in Singapore

2006-07-20T16:55:00.000-07:00

好久没看到公主，她终于来到新加坡了！！好兴奋。。第一场户外活动就是本地的Zouk。这也是我第一次去Zouk喔。。还以为自己很suaku，其实发现班上的人有些也不会去嘛！公主好美喔。。第一场户外活动有五位参赛者，必需模仿公主，曼不错的，可能就是不够原装的好吧。。接下来就是公主表演的时候了，她的舞姿，不知迷了多少男生。。啊！公主就是公主。。。在Zouk唱了五首歌。。。好羡慕Motorola给公主一台Motorola V3i金版,是个Limited Edition leh!!我也要!!

Jolin @ Zouk ! * taken with SE K750i, 4x Zoom in Dim Lighting

第二场户外活动在滨海广场（Marina Sq），当天也有FM的测验,还好测验还曼OK的,应该是会考得不错的啦。。在Marina Sq人山人海，好久没看到那么多人在一个艺人的event了。公主唱的第一首歌是舞娘。。看完公主表演后，上台的时候到了。。好兴奋喔。。真的是好久没看到公主了。。我上台时，还blur blur的，结果就是没和公主说话。。SIAN!不过，KX有和公主握手leh, so jealous lor~! Never mind, 我下一次也要握手!!!

Camera abit weak..bad lighting..

请大家多支持公主..买正版,pangseh pirated 的 hor !!!

好啦,就说到这里,迟一点要去ZPOP了..

Pirates of the Carribean

2006-07-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

After so much hoo-haas about this movie, i finally made mi move to watch this movie at Plaza Sing..got free GV Movie Money anyway so just go there watch.. made my way to Plaza with BC, Des, HM, Chris & TY.. 6 guys stepping into Flash & Splash, looking for a so-called item for females.. LOL and i mean 6 GUYS looking for 1 GAL item.. wth.. so paiseh lor.. anyway heck, just approached n asked, and finally got the item.....item's substitute, i mean. :P heh. den e rest went back, left me n BC to duan bei shan (if u don get it, it's brokeback mountain, if u dono wad's that, click here)...

Walk walk abit then go to this WERID place called Carl's Jr to eat.. kaox.. no wonder ppl say.. "kiang jiu hoh, mai gei kiang".. i go order some chicken burger, and got free flow drinks mah, got seasons ice lemon tea, i go gei kiang lor, go drink the so-called Carl Jr's ice tea lor.. so bitter..coz i nv put sugar syrup & lemon LOL.. den go back and put those den at least taste better, though not much better :S sian diao.. haha chatted wif BC for sometime den we go up cinema le..den we saw this poster, a poster of a movie which we hoped to watch with our dream girls (wahah of cos gotta wait the right time to come lah, no right time no dream ger no chance watch this movie) and here we go :

our movie tickets:

hehe not a bad movie, but everyone was pwned by the ending of the movie, the so-called interesting endings.. nowadays movies starting from X-Men III like to have redundant endings wth.. waited so long and.. pwned with a funni ending, those who watch the movie who missed the ending, u missed it..seriously (referring to Des :P)

My First Post

2006-07-14T19:15:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA, welcome to my blog.. long time haven't been doin blogging since i last closed down my previous blog.. this blog will be abit different from previous blogging yah, trying to be different, that's the moral of the story

Talk of the Town : Italian Football Clubs Relegated after Scandal (not for the un-football fans)
Seems like the Italians just won the World Cup a week or 2 ago, and now they are facing with a internal scandal..Big clubs like Juventus, Lazio all facing down down and down. hehe, good thing for premiership lovers yah, our money-losing Chelsea, powerless Arsenal, "crouch-ing" Liverpool and ManYoo are going to get their hands on big names like Buffon, Gattuso, Luca Toni etc.. Maybe Toni should join L'pool and kick Crouch out of there.. I seriously hate Crouch after the WC, as an England fan.

Talk #2 of the Town : First Toa Payoh Girls Cat Fight
Wah nowadays 3GP very very popular liao hor, it all started with everyone being Tammi-fied, and then you start seeing some sch teachers Play Chinese Chess being caught on 3GP, and then now tada ! we have a new video - FTP Girls Cat Fight... Too bad the link was brought off youtube, or else I would have posted in up here for all u guys to view.. wth.. if these gers have so much media talent, study hard join NP and be a Media Comms or wadever lah..don disgrace yourself here yahhhh... Here are some snapshots tho :

Direct Link to the Video HERE (if it works for you)